Venting

So…I’ve been thinking…about why things are the way they are. When I went to New Orleans I had a conversation with this little boy who was like 14 in the 7th or 8th grade. His school had seven cops (who carried guns and looked soooo mean!), a metal detector with only about 150 students. I asked him how he felt about the cops and he told me that he felt like he was “bad”. I thought about that for a moment and decided that I wouldn’t sugar coat it for him. I told him that things are the way they are not because he is “bad” or because he deserves it but because he is a young black man. I ended up telling him that it will be hard for him to receive adequate education and he will have to work twice as hard as his white counterparts because he is black. I told him it wasn’t just him- its all of us! Especially black men. It’s even harder for black men because they, more than women, are a threat to white supremacy. If the black man was adequately educated, was raised in adequate living conditions, and supported properly, he would once again rule the world. But instead they build our housing developments with gates (that remind us of jail) put seven or more officers in middle schools, put cameras on our streets (B-More and DC), and these cops walk around on their horses as if they are overseers! All subconsciously telling us that we are “bad” and destined to be unsuccessful. I agree that we must rise above our circumstances however when certain things are imbedded in your perception of yourself it becomes hard to understand and overcome to OVERSTAND the barriers that have been implemented to keep us in our place. Its all tactics. Its all poliTRICKS. So they’ve tried to erase our history so we wont know how great our forefathers were. When we think about math we think about Pythagorean instead of the Egyptians; when we think of philosophers we think of the Greeks; they’ve even convinced us that our history started with slavery. We don’t know who we are but they do. Therefore we continue to fall into the traps that have been set for us. So for those who have not been inspired to rise above their circumstances likely indulge in criminal activity as a result of economic misery. In the end, we are killing not only ourselves but each other. Sooooooo- I’m convinced that they know who we are- they only problem is we don’t. If we knew what we were capable of and acknowledged the possibility of success as reality then things wouldn’t be they way they are. Do you agree???

Words

Sometimes...I wish I knew exactly what to say with the hopes that you would understand me clearly. I just want to use the right adjectives, verbs, and nouns so that you can truly know what I mean. Feel what I feel, see things as I see it, hear it when I say it, and understand that I mean it. But most of the time, Im at a lost for words. Sooo words turn into verbs and thus I've found that Im way better at showing you. Because I cant speak. I would write it down but I think you may think that its elementary. Sooo I dont know. How can I put it in a way for you to just understand. Damn...how can I say this. Because you think you know but you have no idea. Erykah said, what good do your words do if they cant understand you. So now Im thinkin, maybe its you. Maybe we choose what we hear and what we dont. Thus, it wouldnt matter if I broke it down in laments terms or not because irregardless, your gonna do your thing and only hear pieces that you can refut so that you can maintain your defense. I hate defense mechanisms. Sooooo here is the solution, I will just stop. try. ing. Maybe my silence will speak for me. Hopefully.